Out of the Bell Jar

I’d spent the first half of 2010 in a funk. Not the cool, George Clinton brand of funk, but the moopy, wallowing in self pity kind. I’ve had valid reasons for my perpetual bad mood, but for the sake of confidentiality and TMI, I haven’t been able to write about it here. You’ll just have to trust me, January through August of this year sucked.

Now, it hasn’t been all bad. A lot of really awesome things have happened over the past few months but there has been so much crummy stuff going on in my usually charmed life, it was hard to focus on the good things.

Being depressed made me restless and irritable. When I was with friends and family I’d rather be alone. When I was alone, I was bored and wanted to hang out with my friends and family. Nothing felt right and I really hated that feeling of being unfocused and unsettled all the time. Which is why this month I realized that I needed a serious attitude adjustment.

I needed to quit whining and start taking charge of my issues, because that’s really what it’s all about. Everyone has periods in their life that are less than perfect and it’s how we cope with those setbacks that really makes all the difference. I’d not been coping well, at least, not on the inside.

So, for the past few weeks I’ve been trying hard to make a conscience effort to stay present. I’ve been grabbing the reins on the things in my life that I can control, and as for the things that I can’t, I’m trying not to take them to heart. It’s been easier said than done, but September has been a much better month for me.

Keeping busy has helped a lot. I’ve been working on a million things at my day job, crafting up a storm at night and planning a big vacation for next month. Most of which, I plan on writing more about here soon.

In the meantime, I will leave you with this, for no reason other than the fact that it’s cute.

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